Right at this very moment, I am sitting in Caribou Coffee in Lake Geneva, WI…by myself!!!  What I did was I put a couple of bottles in Blake’s bed so he can help himself when he get hungry and then I set Brook up in her room with videos galore and some snacks…Okay that is a joke of course!  They are spending the afternoon with Abby, while I write this and then catch up on some work that has been sitting in my inbox for quite some time.

But, for me this is what is called a little bit of heaven.  Travis has been gone for three days and although spending time with my kiddies has been great…until today, I haven’t showered during those three days.  There hasn’t been any time and yes, you can say that there is time after the kids go to bed…but, that is the small window I have to clean the house, do a small amount of work and then read my book before passing out.  Then, don’t get me started about how Blake is confused…He thinks the day time is for sleeping and the night time is for playing.  He’s loving the night life, he wants to boogie…if we have another night like last night, I am throwing in the towel and taking him outside to watch the Perseid meteor shower.  We will watch all the stars fall from the heavens…Right now, mass amounts of caffeine is the only thing that has been getting me through.  Coffee is my friend.

So, this morning at 10am, Abby came walking through my doors and as soon as we talked about the plans for the day, I promptly shooed them out of the house to head to Brook’s gymnastics class.  The house was mine!!!  I showered, flossed, brushed, dressed and did my hair…it was magical!  I was so completely happy being in an empty house that I decided to even clean it up a bit while I danced around to some music.  So there I was, dressed normally in a half-way clean and quiet house…it was bliss.

Then, I thought that I don’t need to stay at home so let’s get some work done at a coffee shop!  So, I grabbed my purse (not a diaper bag) and Lappy the laptop and headed out into the beautiful, sunny and warm day.

I opened my sun roof, which I usually can never do with the kids because Brook tells me that she is getting blown away to bits when I try to open it with her and Blake in the car.  I pop on my sunglasses and set up my I-pod to play the uncensored music selection, turn it on super loud and head on out.  It felt like my birthday and Christmas rolled into one!  I felt free and light and happy.  I was singing in my horrible car voice and just soaking up the moment.  That drive just might be the highlight of my day!  I even felt…dare I say, slightly sexy driving all by myself through the corn fields of Wisconsin…Good Times!

My fellow blogger Heather from dooce.com has a similar post to this one, and really made me think that every new Mom feels this way at least once during the transition of being free to choose your day to having to always do for the children.

Travis is amazing at letting me have at least one moment like this once a week.  Whether it’s going to the grocery store, getting my toes or hair done, or just running into Target to get a quick “something”.  And if for some reason, that doesn’t happen, there is always the solitude of a shower.  That is why I take, like 20 minute showers, because sometimes, it is the only time that I am by myself…my sanctuary.  But, with him being gone…well, it makes those 20 minutes impossible, so thank god for people like Abby…keeping Mommies like me saine.

For the next 3 1/2 hours, I’m going to just love the solitude of me and Lappy and the coffee shop…Life is good!

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